No matter what happens now
You shouldn’t be afraid
Because I know today has been the most perfect day I’ve ever seen.
– Videotape by Radiohead
Hopefully tomorrow night I’ll be watching a nice movie over some McDonalds or Steers in the company of the wonderful and ever so charming Newlande van Rooyen. The only problem is, she is mighily stubborn when it comes to relenting to my incessant and irritating requests for which movie / eats. Don’t worry though, i am not going to give up and will make sure she has a night to remember. After all, she deserves to be spoilt rotten for one. So Newlande, no saying “neeeeeee”. Its going to hopefully be a night of fun and happiness for you that you’ll remember for a long time to come. Even if its because my oh so witty jokes made an impression on you 
So get a move on and tell me what movie you’re up for! I need to reserve a movie house / seat / couch / dvd for the occassion. i also need a definite answer on the choice of eatery so that I might pre plan precisely what scrumptious meal I shall partake of tomorrow night. 
FEAR THE PINK MIST
Published on
29 November 2007 in
My Life.
Its a vicious cycle that just seems to repeat itself over and over again. I’m finding myself becoming more and more irritated with people that seem incapable of making any progress. I’ve found myself again finding a friend stuck at a point in their life and seemingly incapable of taking charge of it. I cannot fathom why they feel their only recourse is to fool themself into believing that everything is ok as long as they ignore it. They want to stay in the same crap situation even though it hurts them constantly. How much longer I can go on trying to help them is something I’m not to certain about. There is only so many times I can bang my head against a brick wall to try and get them to see that the answer lies right in front of their eyes. As the saying goes, you can lead a donkey to water but you can’t make him drink. How true that is.
Well, I suppose I shouldn’t try and force others to try and see the light at the end of the tunnel. We as people usually isolate ourselves from others when it comes to these personal things. I’m not going to force other any longer. I’ll do what is necessary, but no more. My attempts at help and advice have gone unheeded for so long that it merely proves my point that I shouldn’t bother any longer.
As an avid fan of Google it pleased me no end today to hear the new that Google plans to increase its presence in South Africa. According to MyADSL:
Google is planning to establish a local presence for its services – something which will greatly benefit the SA online market.
Google South Africa’s Country Manager Stafford Masie told the MyADSL conference delegates at Vodaworld that Google will establish a local presence before the end of the year.
This means that Google users will be able to access the company’s services from local servers which will most likely be hosted in the Internet Solutions data centre.
This will not only have the advantage of allowing access to users on ‘local only’ accounts, but also ensure far higher service levels.
The Internet giant also announced the launch of its mobile services – including Google Adsense for mobile – allowing mobile content providers to easily monetize their services.
According to Masie, Google SA – which is set to officially launch in February next year – will have a full team in early 2008 to drive both broadband adoption and other initiatives related to Internet penetration and usage in South Africa.
There’s a certain joy inherent in playing online with friends. You might think it comes from playing as a team or having a friendly rivalry in a game. You would be sorely mistaken. It comes from hearing a remarkably sweet and cute person such as Newlande start swearing seven shades of blue as she tries to beat Assassin’s Creed.
On the outside she is a remarkably jovial and happy person, but underneath lies a steel body of swearing. I can attest to this as the following snippet of dialogue shows:
“Ok Terrance. This is going to be easy. I just need to get on the side of the boat. Oh s&^t s&^t s&^t s&^t s&^t s&^t!!!! F*k F*k F*k F*k F*k F*k!!!!”
I suppose this colourful language know as French is indeed the language of love as it never fails to bring a smile to my face as she speaks words of endearment to me for hours on end. She is supposedly shy, but who on earth would guess from her beautiful words?
Thanks for a real fun time Newlande, if only I could understand the language you speak so fluently and beautifully.
Published on
26 November 2007 in
My Life.
I think I’ve made a decision and a momentous one at that. at least in my eyes its momentous Contrary to my previous post I now feel that its in my best interests to cut loose from that situation. I don’t feel anything good will ever come from it regardless of what I might imagine will happen. I think its in my best interest to rather make sure I don’t involve myself in something complex that might end up with someone getting hurt. Rather I’ll be there for that person. As usual I’ll end up being the best friend, the kind guy, a shoulder to cry on. I suppose that’s my lot in life. After such a long time I suppose to some extent I’ve become used to it you know. Its become part of who I am. It defines me to a large degree. I’m not going to let myself become entangled in problems not of my own making if I can help it at all. I’m rather going to move on with my life with a smile on my face.
Our lives are what we make of them. We can choose to feel all sorry for ourselves or we can take life by the horns and tackle obstacles head on. For too long I’ve been content to go with the flow and follow other’s lead. From now on I am my own person. I will walk unafraid with my head held high. Yes, I might stumble. I might fall. That’s all part of life. We have to learn to deal with the bad as well as the good. If we get all depressed over small things in life then we really can’t expect much can we. Yes, most of the time it is very small things we worry about. You might not think so at the time, but we are engendered to make mountains out of mole hills. If only we’d take the time to take stock of our surroundings and assess the situation we’d be far better off. I know its not going to be an easy journey. There’ll be many hardships along the way, but I’m optimistic that I can give of my best, whatever may come. Even Tony Montana managed to drag himself out the gutter to become someone. what better role model than that?
Published on
26 November 2007 in
My Life.
You are all I need
You are all I need
I’m in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds
I am a moth
who just wants to share your light
I’m just an insect
trying to get out of the night
– All I Need by Radiohead
I’m hoping and wondering at what might be. Perhaps something good, perhaps disappointment. we always live with uncertainty in our daily lives and the current issue in my life has really made me take stock of where I want to go in my life and what I want to make of myself. Really at the end of the day its up to me to take control of my own life and make something of it. I cannot depend solely on others to determine who and what I will be. After all, I am me, who would know me better than myself? It took some persuading by a good friend to make me see the situation as it truly is. I thank her for that. Sometimes I do need the obvious pointed out to me. Then again, don’t we all?
Wow! I looked at the calendar the other day and couldn’t believe that we are about to enter December already. Just the other day it was January and I was starting my job at PS Online. Several months later I’m about to finish off my first year here and can’t believe its flown by this fast. In a few short weeks I’ll be on year end leave and attending the wedding of my good friend Dean. Its another sign of the times. most of my friends and acquaintances are getting married and starting families. Its shocking to think that just a few short years ago we were care free students with naught on our minds but having a good time and a few laughs. As the saying goes, time flies when you’re having fun so I suppose this past year has been a damn fun one!
Published on
26 November 2007 in
My Life.
Aah the beautiful irony of life is amazing sometimes. Just this weekend I was having a somewhat okayish time until my Sunday evening rolled around. Then here it all went pear shaped. I’ve always tried to be a somewhat nice guy to my friends. I’ve always made sure I’m there for the people that I care about. Unfortunately this time it was thrown back in my face. I suppose I can understand partially where my friend came from but still, there is never any excuse for laughing in someone’s face when you try to help them. It terribly depressed me last night and led to a restless night of tossing and turning with me trying my best to try and figure out my friend’s thought processes and motivations.
I think now that maybe people who are colder than me have an easier time of it. Maybe I make other people’s problems my own. I received some good advice last night from a friend. Be there for my friends, listen to them, comfort them, but don’t make their problems mine. That’s a character flaw I’ve always suffered from and is something that has led to a lot of hurt in the end. I’ll certainly be less open from now on when it some to helping those around me. I’ll still be there for my friends, but no longer will I involved myself unnecessarily in their problems. After all I am important too. I have feelings, thoughts and motivations of my own. Time will tell.
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